Yesterday a long term friend of mine sent me one of his occasional emails – an email to me, not to undisclosed recipient – that brought me up short.
It was, because I know him very well, simultaneously light hearted and deadly serious.
But, more interesting to me, it was poetic.
I was unnerved.
Out of the typical kluge of words that he sends in such emails select words leapt out at me; and they told a story; and it was a Bruce Springsteen story.
All the thing needed was the pre-story.
And I was pretty sure I could write that.
I knew him; I knew the place his email was talking about; I had had several other – close – friends over my wandering life that had come from right close to there; and had a web of stories from that group that could be distilled into that pre-story.
So I got out my yellow pad of paper and started to write.
I was surprised at how quickly it flowed.
And then the email did the rest.
The poem was done overnight.
Then I keyed into the computer, formatted it, and made the decision that no punctuation would be included.
In the final analysis it turned out that what I produced looks like a Bruce Springsteen poem written by Jimmy Buffet.
Here is the email that got this started:
“The more I think about the craziness going on maybe moving back to the town I grew up in might, I stress might, be a good idea.
In 70+ years not much has changed.
The harbor has filled in with sand and no one is dredging it out and they now are charging an admission fee to drive your car out on the sandbar that has formed there.
No new business no new hotels and just plain nothing or about nothing affects it.
Still cold as hell and tons of winter snow but the population is still about the same as it was somewhere between 9-10K depending on who's count you use.
As I think about it I do own property there two cemetery plots!
That's what happens to me now when the weather turns cold/cool it's in the low 40s here today.
My brain stops
So here is the poem:
My family didn’t have too much
But we never really cared
America was always there for us
And most of us all shared
Just put a boat in the harbor then
We could always catch some perch
And laying off their skeletons
We’d take them to the church
Where Fridays after work was done
We’d fry the gathered catch
And pretend we all were rich folks then
As a kid that seemed the best
The best that life could ever be
The best of times so far
But darkness lurked all over us
Like being trapped inside a jar
A jar so full of smoke
That nothing could be seen
But nothing seemed enough for us
So we made the most of lean
Lean times, slim pickin’s was all we had
Clouded by that jar
The best that life could ever be
The best of times so far
I was different from most of them
I got a college rag
I got a job in Mammon Town
Success was in the bag
But darkness lurked around me still
That jar now clear to see
That nothing was too great for me
So nothing would I be
I made a lot of money
And pissed it all away
Finally moved to somewhere warm
That’s where I am today
And thinking thoughts behind me
I finally may believe
That going back a lifetime
Is my last reprieve
Now I sit here wondrin’
Why I even care
Michael didn’t get me
And nothin’s really fair
My mind goes back at night time
To the fish out on the bay
That bay’s all filled with sand now
But why should I just stay
Stay here among the dying
The crippled and the dead
When packing up when dawn comes
All of this could be shed
And trek back to where I came from
Back up in the north
Back to where I came from
Back up in the north
Back to where the sandbar
That once had been the bay
Is now a metered parking lot
The perch all gone away
Still cold as hell in winter
With tons of winter snow
No new business no hotels and nothin’
Nothin’ for to show
For all the time now long gone
For all the smoke that’s cleared
And America still is there for us
So nothing should be feared
And trek back to where I came from
Back to where I own
Some land that once was left to me
Two plots with each its stone
The graveyard plots of yesteryear
The prize left me to win
Or prizes left me to own